I gave a roll of my eyes as I walked out of the movie theater. I had seen all of the movies in the series there had only been three anyway, counting the one I had just seen and I would gladly say that this one I wasn't too fond of. Why did most movies end up getting worse the farther they went along? The third Men In Black wasn't something that I was willing to see again. Today was a day in which I felt like breaking my routine. I didn't have classes, so I didn't need to do anything; I decided to do something that I normally don't do for my free day.
Going to the movies wasn't something that I did on a normal basis; normally someone had to drag me to get me out of my room both at school, and at the house that I grew up in. It wasn't that today was special it was any other day, in my opinion and it certainly wasn't because I was sick of hanging around in my room. I preferred it in my room, but...... After the most recent circumstances I didn't want to that much. I was still trying to avoid Ran as much as I could, so I changed up my routine.
Simple to understand, right?
I believed that it was. If I stayed away from him if I could: it was hard when he was in my class I wouldn't feel as betrayed....... And I certainly wouldn't want the emotions that I had started to feel for him to come back. Not when I was supposed to be staying away from him. I had been doing pretty good so far, and I was planning on keeping it that way.
I stretched my sore limbs as I started walking again, and almost immediately I bumped into someone. I was pushed to the side without even a glance from the larger man.
"Hey!" I growled out when he didn't even glance at me. I gave him a glare as I caught my balance again. "Watch where you're going!"
Nothing. No reaction at all. The man carried on as if I hadn't spoken, and that he hadn't even bumped into me in the first place. I stood there, frozen, for a few minutes before I started to move; I bumped into someone again it was busy at this time of evening. Like the first, this young woman didn't even flinch. No movements to say how sorry she was, and she didn't even move like she had bumped into someone. No reaction.
A noise came out of my throat I didn't know what possessed me to make it and I tried to grab her shoulder..... I found that I couldn't. My hand didn't touch her, unless you're wanting to call going through, touching. A gasp escaped my lips as I took a step back. I held my arms out, and looked at them I saw something that I didn't expect. I looked the same as I always did. I had thought that something had to have been different.
What the hell is going on here? I shook my head at the thought. I had no clue. I turned, and started to run down the sidewalk. I kept running into different people people that didn't notice that there was something going on that was out of the ordinary. Why would they notice? It's not like I was important to any of these strangers anyway.
I knew the city as well as any of its permanent residents. I had grown up in the same place since I was born, and I had no problem going through all of the streets. The first thing that I did while running was make a split-second decision I ran in the direction of my home. If I had been in the right mind I wouldn't have, but I was scared. I did the first thing that came to mind. No matter what my father thought of me, he would see me. At the moment I didn't really care in what light he saw me in.
I hated to say that I was wrong.
When I got to the house that I knew all so well I walked straight in. My father was in the living room talking with some men that I also knew all too well; ones that I didn't want to know that well. He didn't notice me. Neither did his guests. I tried to get his attention to get any of their attentions' but I couldn't grasp it. I had been certain that at least my father would see me....
"He's not here. He'll be here in three weeks, and he will have a work week off from school it's his next holiday." My father was saying, and I closed my eyes. I knew what they were talking about as soon as I heard the words leave his mouth I didn't need to hear anymore of the conversation. With a hard look at the men in the room I walked out. After that I decided to try the next one I figured would be able to see me Hidashi must be able to better than my old man, right? He actually seems to care about me.....
"Hidashi!" I called once I ran all the way to said males' house. I heard yells, and swears. I looked in through an open window, and I saw the teen that I was looking for. He was fighting with an older man, and I watched for a few moments before yelling his name again which he gave no reaction to.
I looked down at the ground before running off again. He hadn't seen me who did that leave? I wouldn't go to the place that Lucas and Con decided to live in, because I didn't feel like running to the other side of town. If no one saw me...... If I was invisible..... Maybe my wish came true. It was something that I had wanted, but now that I had it I felt like I wanted to give it back.
"I guess I might as well go back to school..." I thought aloud if people couldn't hear me, why shouldn't I speak what was on my mind? I would do it gladly that was the point of being a presence that wasn't known to anyone.
I took off again walking slowly this time. There wasn't a point in running to see if people there would see me. Nobody ever seemed to see me unless they decided to use me, or to speak harshly to me. It wasn't that I minded far from it, actually, I really didn't care what they did as much as it was that I didn't care. If the main people that I thought could see me couldn't...... What made me think that people that had never truly saw me before would now?
Maybe Ran could see me doubtful, but the chance was still there even though I wasn't too keen on the idea...... Even if he couldn't see me I didn't want to see him. That was one of the main things that had me walking slowly towards my school; the other being that I didn't see the point in hurrying to find people that wouldn't care to see me invisible or not.
When I finally did get to the school I passed a bunch of people that I knew: teachers, and other students. A head never turned my way as their voices drifted towards me. Nobody gave me a second glance when I was visible, so it was no surprise.......But...... I shook my head. I wouldn't continue brooding. This is what I had wanted, right? Well. Now I wasn't so sure. Not being seen was a scary thing.
"I guess it's about time I stopped stalling." I mumbled. I knew that the odds of him seeing me were very slim, but at least I would be in my room; able to put my mind at rest....... Somewhat. My mind wouldn't be at rest until I realized why nobody was able to see me. It would be wrong to rest until then if I ever found out. I was only assuming that I would, and if I didn't it would be a long while before I had a rest. Maybe it was better to give up while I was ahead.
With that thought I opened the door to the dorm that I was stuck in. The walk I noted seemed to be quicker when I wasn't being seen, and nobody seemed to notice the doors mysteriously opening. Either they couldn't see the door opening, or they were just too stupid to realize it. Eh, either of those options were as good as anything else; most realistic as well. When I opened the door though...... Let's say I was in for a shock.
Right there on the floor...... Were Ran and Aki. Aki was Ran's "friend." I had always doubted it, because they had sex, but Ran was strict when he stated that they were just friends. Again, I thought on it...... I didn't think that I was in the right mind for thinking. I closed my eyes, and turned my head away as to pretend that I couldn't see what was going on in the middle of the room....... In the middle of our room.
Ran was pounding into the shorter raven haired teen. He was pounding mercilessly into the other body. I couldn't see them, but it felt like I could. I could hear every sound from the both of them, and I didn't want to....... Yet, I couldn't move. It was almost as if I was frozen to the ground. They wouldn't notice me, and even if they did I knew that neither would bother to stop...... I doubted that they were that thoughtful I knew that my roommate wasn't.
Finally against my better judgment, and after minutes of hearing the moans and groans I opened my eyes, and turned to my head back so that I was looking at them again. If I hadn't already been rooted to the spot I would have said that I was once I saw Ran's eyes. His multicolored orbs were bright with anger. The look sent a chill up my spine, but I barely felt it. What I had felt was eyes on me. Not seeing through me like some of the others that I had walked passed earlier in the day, but actually on me.
When I looked at where it was coming from I found that it was Aki that was staring at me. It was almost as if he could see me. The thought of him him of all people! - being the only one to see me, and at the moment was.... Something was bugging me about that. I seriously thought that he could see me, or else why would there be something like a challenge in his dark eyes.
I tried to take a step back, but I wasn't able to. My top body moved, but my bottom stayed put. I fell back a little, an-
My eyes fluttered open without realizing it. I hadn't even noticed that I hadn't been awake. The dream apparently that's what it was just seemed so real. It was almost haunting really. Come to think of it maybe it was a haunting. I had wished to be invisible to everyone and everything to go a day like that to see how different everyone acted. It seemed that it wasn't much different. Maybe it was the same thing. Maybe I had been dreaming of what life would have been like beyond death....... The thought was a startling one, but not like the one that I had just taken in. It wasn't exactly like the one I had in my "dream"...... It could relate though.
When I had woken I had thought that I felt something on my forehead, and I half-expected it to be another wet towel I had woken up in my room like that before, and I knew for a fact I was in my bed; in my dorm. Only a few moments seemed to have passed before I realized how close Ran was to me, and that I was feeling his lips pressed to my forehead. Once he seemed content with something he pulled back before noticing that my eyes were open, and that I was looking at him.
He didn't say anything to me, nor did he need to. He just stood up, and as he had done before disappeared into the bathroom; filled a plastic cup of water; came back with a hand holding the cup, and pain medication in his other. It was almost like before when I had been like this, but it wasn't exactly the same. He had done this the last time that Hidashi had found me in an alley passed out, of course and had brought me back here.
"What were you doing?" I asked in a hoarse voice after several moments. Deep down I think I knew what he was doing, but I didn't really acknowledge it. My voice surprised me. It was almost as if I hadn't used it in a couple days I was sure that I had. Neither of us had spoke for a while, but something had to be said.
"Checking your temperature." He replied, and I vaguely recalled something about your lips being the most sensitive part of the body..... I never cared to pay that much attention, so I wasn't completely sure.
"You didn't look good, and it needed to be done sooner or later." His voice was soft something that I had noticed only happened when he was talking with me.
"What do you mean?"
"You skipped classes all through yesterday. You've been asleep since yesterday morning." His words might have been a little harsh, but there was something in his eyes that betrayed how he had apparently been worried. I tilted my head a little bit, but the small movement alighted a headache one of which I gave a groan at as I threw back the pills and water in one gulp.
"What did Nanami-sensei say about it?" I asked with a groan as I tossed the cup away, and pushed a hand against my head. Obviously Nanami who happened to be the nurse would know about me skipping classes: I didn't do it often, and when I did it was serious. He had probably came to check on me, or something along those lines.
"I didn't give him any time to say anything about it." The long haired male stated as he gazed at me evenly. "I wouldn't let him in to look at you."
"Ah." I said, feeling some relief at the statement. I wasn't big on doctors of any kind, and Ran knew this. I was going out on a limb, and saying that he must have been the one that took care of me over the past twenty-four hours. "Um..... Thank you." I mumbled the last two words quickly as if to get them passed without noticing.
"Just take better care of yourself. I don't want you to be like this again."
"I don't do it on purpose." I gave a small frown. "You didn't even have to take care of me." His stern, sharp face seemed to soften a little at that, and he gave a sigh.
"I told you that I would protect you before; watching over you fits the bill just as well as any other reason." His voice carried over to me softly, but held a strong conviction. I didn't much feel up for smiling I felt too weak and tired to do that but one managed to plant itself onto my features. It was as rare as his soft side was, and just like his soft side only seemed to come up around him. My "dream" - which I was still certain that it was almost a death dream was still hanging into the small corridor in my mind that it had decided to call home. I was sure that it would stick with me for a while, but I would do my best to go along ignoring it.
No matter what he had done to me he could still make me smile. It was a miracle, really. Especially after what I had seen him doing with Aki in my dream. I had actually seen them start before, but never had I witnessed the whole thing; I never wanted to. I was going to admit what thing about that part of my dream that was starting to nag at me more than any other part.
When I saw Ran and Aki on the floor of the room, and both immersed in sweat I couldn't help but lock up. It wasn't just the shock of it going on if it had just been that I would have been fine. It was something completely different. I had felt a tug of a very strong emotion that I wasn't used to feeling towards someone else, but I had known what it was. Despite not being good with emotions, I knew all of them. The one that I had felt was something that I never would have expected; that emotion was.......